Thursday, March 24, 2011

Only Hope

Day after day ..
People who I love left me
I just want you
I just keept this feeling until I die
I wouldn't say

Lost hope ..
I lost hope to see you again
I just hope

if you know
do you feel the same?
is it true that you love her more than me?

although painful knife sliced
despite the cold snow
although the heat of the fire
although the sharp words of you ..
I want you only

so many years I kept these feelings ..
such trash in my heart that are difficult to dispose
such as pain that cant be cured by anything

If you were mine
If you know ..
If you saw me here .. i'm waiting for you ..
just to see you today or tomorrow ..

I'm tired of always following you just to see you
I'm tired of waiting for you to say hello to me
I'm tired of all this painful story!

for what I hope for you?
I'm tired of crying every night to see you with her
I'm tired of waiting for years!

if you know all this ..
when will you know! Its hurts!!

and ..
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only Yours I pray
To be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope..

so far I reach out you ..
I tried to chase you .. and you're getting away and I tired to reach you..

Ok! that words from me :) yeah.. i kinda felt like that this week :( 
So.. what meaning of the pic "hear me now" and the title is "Only Hope" ?

>> About meaning of the pic is actually I was inspired by a song from Secondhand Serenade is "hear me now". The main meaning is *i just wanted you know about this and i wanted you hear me* so.. you know what i mean??

>> About meaning of title is.. haha! you know that!! don't ask me again about  WHAT MEANING OF ONLY HOPE! ok? C:

i wanna tell you something *readers :) if you felt like me or you feel only hope, is hurts! i mean.. I'm just keep this feeling for years!! till 3 years.. maybe 4 years!! you can imagine it?  Years with painful! say that you LOVE HIM!! or HER!! don't waste your time again for waiting something that never happen!!

em.. i think.. my feeling is gone for him :) HE IS MY 7 GRADE CLASSMATE ON JUNIOR HIGH :) 

Its long time :/ now i'm 10 grade, so.. i'm now! only hope with guy who far far away ! (not in heaven) but he in America. HEY! FUCK FOR WHAT I WRITE!! 

I wish.. he come back again :) huuft..  GOD!! C: ARGH!! I had headache! from last night (-_-) ok! back to the only hope story!! i just wanted to say (A) i really miss ya :) he said in email that he likes to talk with me coz im funny :/ *im a joke?* 

ok.. so HAPPY B'DAY (A) :) i hope you know that (A) is your name ;) WISH YOU ALL THE BEST dirty boy C: GOD BLESS YOU!! :*

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Friday, March 18, 2011

Hey! You get KARMA!!

"'Karma' is an Indian religious concept in contradistinction to 'faith' espoused by Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, and Islam), which view all human dramas as the will of God as opposed to present—and past—life actions. In theistic schools of Hinduism, humans have free will to choose good or evil and suffer the consequences, which require the will of God to implement karma's consequences, unlike Buddhism or Jainism which do not accord any role to a supreme God or Gods. In Indian beliefs, the karmic effects of all deeds are viewed as actively shaping past, present, and future experiences. The results or 'fruits' of actions are called karma-phala.[3] and. ...."


Simple it is .. if you do something bad to someone, then you will get a result of the crime.
so.. thats it :/

i have story :)
He is my classmate, he always yell at me and i dunno whats my fault! damn it!
i know.. when first we meet, he annoying me! he call me Tall monster, he said that im weird *true and lot of his words that hurts me a lot!

and I VOWED for him to get karma !
finally, I heard from my friends, he broke up with his girlfriend

Im soooo happy!! i pray "God,I want him to hurting more than what I feel"
You can think! everyday in class when i ask him with *not angry voice*  and.. he not answerd me anymore.. and you know, he said "WHAT? WHO ARE YOU? ARE YOU TALKING WITH ME? HUH?" how hurts it is?!

but now .. he back with his girlfriend ..
never mind!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Japan oh japan

im speechless!!! :'(
like a dream.. just like a dream..
tsunami in Japan yesterday -> 11th March 2011..
when i watching breaking news, and see the WAVES!! its creepy! oh god..
the tsunami japan 2011 :'(

and the morning, i wake up, i felt the tragedy its just like a DREAM O.o
its feels like.. ever happened but its happened!! *you know what i mean?!*
i felt its just DREAM!! like that tragedy is not happen but its happened.. "im weird!"

"Their high priority togetherness
Always cooperate
Always able to think quickly handle problems

Work hard

Mutual cooperation
Great spirit

They have the strength to move forward
They have great courage
Power of Japan!!
Power of Asian!"

Monday, March 7, 2011


Hey there! hey guys!! :D
Did you ever think "Your words already hurt me" ?
OOOoo.. Everybody maybe already know that! yes!!!  im felt it a thousend TIME!!!
Haha! sucks!! yeah.. your words bleed me  a LOT!!

LOL! my life is lot of pain! :D its not even funny! :/
im hurting then you never know it! and you just compare me with YOUR PERFECT FRIEND!
and what you know what i felt today? or last week? or first i know you, huh??!!


Now.. you already know :) im just  "only hope"
im just hoping that you'll be mine.. 
I have accepted you as it is ..
but you do not realize how much I love you ..
but .. I accept this ..
if she that you choose.

(walking down the path, alone, crying)

do not you know I waited a long time just for your self!
*Only hope mode on*
"only god knows what I think
only got knows what im must to do "

I think.. im a emo :p

thanks for everything (A) my friend :')

 i guess! 
> Ari
> Andy
> Ali
> Adam
> And i dont know!!


so.. guys! im so mellow this week.. :/ yeah..
and i delete him :D happy!! em.. not at all :)
ok! i know my english is NOt VERY well but (A) compare me with his friend who VERY well in english :)

because im indonesian :) since i born :D (what?) im used Indonesian language "Mother Language" and I can language Javanese and Sundanese, kinda easy :D (i mean im well with it.. em... no really :p)

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Thursday, March 3, 2011

Life // Hidup

Life is like .. . life jokes
who fell ridiculed
who insulted trampled
same as to oppression
Joke for me and for you it's different

Your money and my money differently. . .
My house and your house is different

Can anyone stop this painful joke?

Life is. . . like a tree in the garden
When you plant me, I am with you always flush the water. . .
When I grow up. . you just take my property. .

When I try to survive
And I'm getting older .... You have the heart to leave me alone on the roadside
and beautiful place be a place filled with sadness ..

Is there a chance for you to change this situation?

Life is. . . choose! not chosen! and responsible
Life is hard if you think it's difficult

Want to fly and leave you a step on the ground

I just hope, jokes that actually make you laugh happy :)  it was me

Life is like your hair
When i grow long. you are proud of me
When I cut, you hate me. ..

Live with your own choice NOT other people

The path you choose is what has been selected

You're like water .. who can only evaporate and fly upwards if there is The Sun.


Hidup itu seperti .. . lelucon yang hidup
yang terjatuh ditertawakan
yang terhina diinjak-injak
sama saja dengan penindasan
Lelucon untuk ku dan untuk mu itu berbeda 

Uang mu dan Uang ku berbeda . . .
Rumah ku dan Rumah mu berbeda

Adakah yang bisa menghentikan lelucon yang menyakitkan ini?

Hidup itu. . . seperti pohon yang ada di taman
Ketika kamu menanam aku, kau selalu menyiram aku dengan air . . .
Ketika aku tumbuh. .  kamu hanya mengambil harta ku . . 

Ketika aku mencoba bertahan
Dan aku semakin tua.... Kau tega meninggalkan ku sendirian di pinggir jalan 
dan tempat yang indah menjadi tempat yang penuh dengan kesedihan..
Adakah kesempatan untuk kau mengubah situasi ini?
Hidup itu. . . memilih! bukan dipilihkan! dan bertanggung jawab
Hidup memang susah jikalau kamu menganggap itu susah

Ingin terbang dan meninggalkan mu yang menginjak tanah

Aku hanya berharap, lelucon yang benar-benar membuat mu tertawa bahagia :) itu lah aku

Hidup itu seperti rambut mu
Jika tumbuh panjang. aku dibanggakan
Jika aku digunting, kamu membenci ku. ..

Hiduplah dengan pilihan mu sendiri BUKAN orang lain

Jalan yang kau pilih itulah yang sudah terpilih

Kamu seperti air.. yang hanya bisa menguap dan terbang ke atas jika ada Sang Matahari.

By : (myself)

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